Wanting a sunset, needed the storm.

Over the course of the past year and a half there have been many dark moments. Some I chose to never speak of again, as you can imagine when the heart gets broken and the mind gets low there are thoughts that enter your head that, while I recognize their severity, I am not too...

Life is Short…..

“Life is short, you should choose to be happy” the quote read on a Facebook post from someone that I would consider to be nothing more than a Facebook friend. It is an interesting title to give someone nowadays. To me that term means, you want to see what is happening in my life, but...

Better Left Unread

I refuse to make someone feel like they are second best. Like they are a consolation prize. As if they are not what I want but I am lonely so I will put forth my best efforts to enjoy their company and make them feel like they are the partner I have been looking for...

Body Memories

I walked across the parking lot on my way into work yesterday; I had to fight every muscle in my body from turning around and running back to my car and driving away. I wasn’t feeling down, I wasn’t feeling up. It was what has become my norm of just riding that middle ground. At...

It has been a while – Part one – My son………

It has been a while since last I sat down at this keyboard and wrote. It has been a while since I have had the mental bandwidth to confront the notion that things have changed and, while they are “good” changes, I have used them as excuses, as if they have taken up the parts...

The pursuit of happiness……

There has been a gap in my writing as I devoured what books lay around, wrote poetry, lyrics, and sat silently with a loud mind. The past two weeks were filled from morning until night with an even keeled mentally, the ups and downs, or waves, subsided to find calm waters enough for me to...

the time has come……..

I loved talking with her. I still do. She came up to pick up our youngest son after spending his February break with me. We went out to lunch, all the while she is saying that she needs to leave by a certain time to get back to her home, our previous home, and now...

Of Comfort and Peace….

When I sat down to write “All that I had, I gave away (a letter to you)” I did so with a sense of relief, finally realizing what was nagging at me inside, something I could not identify until I hit me. The difficulty came from the feeling that I should be “moving on” and just...

To jump again…

I stand twenty stories high. My bare feet solidly planted on the edge of the glass building, toes curl over the edge gripping the sides firmly. Gently I lean my body forward observing the crowds below. From above they appear as chess pieces strategically moving throughout their day as I, from my perch, stand and...

All that I had, I gave away (a letter to you)

My Love, I spent this past weekend driving through the places that meant a lot in our lives. It wasn’t an intentional trip down memory lane that brought me by these places but nonetheless it is where I ended up. It started with me passing the house that we bought, our sweet little 3-bedroom ranch...